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First Emperor Chinese Restaurant in Richardson Yummy Food !


For dinner tonight visited the First Emperor Chinese Restaurant. First time there.   The place is a small hole in the wall but the reviews on yelp are great for this place.  My date and I ordered an appetizer each and an entree each.   My date ordered egg drop soup and I ordered shrimp egg rolls. For our main meal my date ordered steamed pork with veggies. That was pretty much large slices of bacon. Pig stomach . Still yummy. I ordered sweet and sour shrimp. I never knew that existed. I’ve heard of sweet and sour chicken but never sweet and sour shrimp.   They were so good and fresh and steaming hot. They  served us steamed rice with our meal. To drink we had hot tea. Everything was good.  

The restaurant is run by a husband and wife team so depending on the amount of customers the service can lag a bit.  For all the food we ate it ended up costing about 43 bucks.  A bit pricey you might say but the food is worth it.   

Updated: January 5, 2017 — 11:12 AM

You are stronger than you realize.

people change memories dont

You are crueller than you realize. The smallest words will break your heart.You will change. You’re not the same person you were three years ago. You’re not even the same person you were three minutes ago and that’s okay. Especially if you don’t like the person you were three minutes ago. People come and go. Some are cigarette breaks, others are forest fires. You won’t like your name until you hear someone say it in their sleep. You’ll forget your email password but ten years from now you’ll still remember the number of steps up to his flat.

You don’t have to open the curtains if you don’t want to. Never stop yourself texting someone. If you love them at 4 a.m., tell them. If you still love them at 9.30 a.m., tell them again. Make sure you have a safe place. Whether it’s the kitchen floor or the Travel section of a bookshop, just make sure you have a safe place. You will be scared of all kinds of things, of spiders and clowns and eating alone, but your biggest fear will be that people will see you the way you see yourself. Sometimes, looking at someone will be like looking into the sun. Sometimes someone will look at you like you are the sun. Wait for it. You will learn how to sleep alone, how to avoid the cold corners but still fill a bed. Always be friends with the broken people.

how we walk with the broken

They know how to survive. You can love someone and hate them, all at once. You can miss them so much you ache but still ignore your phone when they call. You are good at something, whether it’s making someone laugh or remembering their birthday. Don’t ever let anyone tell you that these things don’t matter. You will always be hungry for love. Always. Even when someone is asleep next to you you’ll envy the pillow touching their cheek and the sheet hiding their skin. Loneliness is nothing to do with how many people are around you but how many of them understand you. People say I love you all the time. Even when they say, ‘Why didn’t you call me back?’ or ‘He’s an asshole.’ Make sure you’re listening. You will be okay.

Updated: March 23, 2016 — 11:35 AM

Why do we love only when it’s convenient to us?

love me only when its convenient

Why do we love only when it’s convenient to us? Is it because we don’t want to let go Of the security that a close heart holds? Or is it the risk of being broken? Too unbearable to even let the thought surface.There are greater rewards in stepping outside of your own comfort Than there are in never breaking down the walls that you’ve built.

A solely self-sustaining life is surely a hollow one. Why do we love only when it’s convenient to us? A solely self-sustaining life is surely a hollow one.Why do we love only when it’s convenient to us? Why are we understanding? Why are we understanding only when it’s agreeable?



“WE CAME AS ROMANS – Stay Inspired “

Updated: March 23, 2016 — 11:35 AM

You’re not growing up if you’re not losing friends.

not going to appologize for who i am

You’re not growing up if you’re not losing friends. That’s a really famous quote. Just this year, I lost approximately 20 friends. Now that’s not worth, is it? I can never understand the logic behind a human’s‘ psychology. Humans act without even thinking. ‘Think before you speak’ is never executed or implemented by humans. He says that he stopped talking to me because I’d stop talking to him in future anyways. Is that a reason to stop talking to anyone? Doesn’t look like. It all just hurts so much. Humans have a tendency to assume that they take the right decision ALL the time. I might be wrong too.  I should probably look at the whole situation from his point of view. But is that what the world cares about? If I start thinking about others needs, I’d probably get invisible soon and people wouldn’t even care about me. 

i refuse to appologize for being a bitch

But isn’t it inhuman or selfish to think about only one’s self and not about others?  There comes a phase in every humans life where they get really confused about what to do. Confusion between the right and the wrong.  Situations like this lead to depressions and depressions lead to isolation of that particular individual.  “Humans are a social animal” said Aristotle. This means that no human can live without friends. But humans are so heartless that they avoid a few humans and act really rude towards them.

Updated: March 23, 2016 — 11:35 AM

I might act mean or careless.

a sad soul is always up past midnight

I might act mean or careless at times but the truth is I care too much.  I been through a lot.  It seems that I am always sad.  I act goofy to make people laugh and to keep myself from feeling sad.  I like to be alone but at the same time hate feeling lonely. I wear my heart on my sleeve and ignore my brains logic.   Somedays I want to get out the house and go do things other days I just want to stay in and do nothing at all.


Updated: March 23, 2016 — 11:35 AM

Why Our World Would End If These Things I Learned In Life Disappeared



I’ve learned that we don’t have to change friends,If we understand that friends change.

I’ve learned that something that you do in an instant, can give you heartache for life.

I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words, it may be that last time you see them.

I’ve learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I’ve learned that either you control your attitude, or it controls you.

I’ve learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and still have a good time.

I’ve learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you are down, will be the ones  who help  you get up.

I’ve learned that sometimes when I  am angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them too, doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I’ve learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.

I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others, but sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I’ve learned that just because two people argue, doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do love each other.

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret, it may change you life forever.

I’ve learned that sometimes the people that you love most in life, are taken from you too soon.

I’ve learned that you can’t make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved, and the rest is up to them.

I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t  care back.

I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and just seconds to destroy it.

I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in life, but who you have that counts.

I’ve learned that you can keep going, long after you think you can’t.

I’ve learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don’t know how to show it.

I’ve learned that even when you feel you have no more to give, a friend cries out and you find the strength  to help.

I’ve learned that our backgrounds and circumstances may have influenced our lives, but we are responsible  for who we become.

Updated: March 25, 2016 — 9:40 AM

Pretty sure I look forward to my boss vacation’s more than she does.

The other day at work I lost it popped like a blister in the sun.   For a year now stress has accumulated and instead of releasing the stress or dealing with it I just swallow it like a bitter pill and keep on trucking.  This all started when an ex of mine got promoted as my supervisor.   Yes I know the saying don’t dip your pen in company ink but the person who became my boss is Alicia.



Yes the very same one who has anger management issues. The very same one I have written several post about. Anyways to summarize a years worth of bs the problems that cause me a great deal of stress is my boss lack of experience supervising a shift. She is young and has not had a lot of experience.  At my job my main responsibilities include answering phone calls and emails and doing basic data entry.  That in itself is a full 8 hour job which is full of acceptable levels of stress.

Im in my happy place

I also take care of our AES department. We have the largest AES network in Dallas and we have expanded to several different cities in TX. That department requires about 8 work to accomplish several different task which include  tech support,programming units,selling units, ordering supplies, selling supplies, checking the strength of the network , and many other things. This department will give you an average amount of stress.

i know im customer service they dont pay me enough to care

Currently I am working 2 full-time jobs and only get paid for one.  Here are the problems. Due to recent upgrades at work we now have to do more work by answering phone calls from other departments which cuts into the amount of time we have to deal with problems in our own department. Not only that I  am working 2 full-time jobs in just one 8 hour day mixed with the bs of another departments phone calls.  All this has increased the level of stress to near super saiyan levels.

stress level over 9000

I know what you’re thinking if I can’t handle the job then quit. Well I can handle my job  what I can’t handle is having a boss who fails to motivate us and has anger management issues.  The other day was the last straw man I powered up at work went beyond level 9000 punched the wall got tears in my eyes and thought about putting my 2 weeks in.   We had 2 large orders from a dealer who wanted basically 10 of everything we sell.  That’s fine we can do that but part of their order requested (10) 25 ft long cables that i have to measure and cut and crimp on connectors and test each one. doing 10 at one time takes about 4 hours but my boss wanted me to do all that shit in 2 hours.  

a good leader takes a little more than his share of the blame

Instead of helping me out she started bitching at me like she usually does and so after a year of bullshit that drove me over the edge.  I sent her and her boss an email with a piece of my mind  about 7 paragraphs worth of complaints. My boss is the type that only cares about their own self and will trow you under the bus to cover her own ass. Her lack of experience affects the ability to handle our department.    Well anyways coworkers told me I should have involved HR.  Nah if things get worse I will but overnight things have changed and if they stay that way I will be one happy camper.

Updated: March 23, 2016 — 5:07 PM
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