I might act mean or careless.

I might act mean or careless at times but the truth is I care too much.  I been through a lot.  It seems that I am always sad.  I act goofy to make people laugh and to keep myself from feeling sad.  I like to be alone but at the same time hate feeling lonely. I wear my heart on my sleeve and ignore my brains logic.   Somedays I want to get out the house and go do things other days I just want to stay in and do nothing at all.