Last fucking piece of the Alicia puzzle.

For a long time I tried to piece together my mistake the reason why it failed. Don’t you just hate when you’re looking for something and can’t find it or ask a question to something and you don’t get an answer but it was right there in front of you the whole time? Marie, Alicia, Big whopper, and I where partying it up at M Street one faithful night and I don’t remember exactly what all we did that night and who exactly all partied with us but we drank a lot we were celebrating Alicia’s promotion to supervisor. Alicia drove herself and I rode with Whopper and Marie.

We drank a lot I mean a lot and Alicia and I got wasted. I remember we talked a lot that night and we had a lot of fun. We dropped acid and rode white horse and dropped exo’s. Just kidding… Last call came around so I went to pay my tab. The place was packed so it took me a minute to pay my tab and join everyone else outside. Alicia paid her tab as well and took even longer to join us outside. I don’t know why she had her own tab since I was buying drinks for all of us. I was barely able to walk in fact Marie asked me if I was ok and I told her no but it’s ok Whopper can drive cause he only had a beer or 2. 

 

Just then Marie tells me look your homegirl can’t walk she’s wasted. I turn around and sure enough Alicia took her shoes off and was stumbling towards her truck that the valet had just delivered. This chick was white girl wasted. I told her I can’t let you drive like that she didn’t want me to drive her she was upset about something but I stood in front of the driver door and would not let her in.  

So we argued for about a minute or 2 and I finally powered up past level 9000 and yelled just told her give me the keys and let’s go. She was living with her parents at the time and Alicia and I had been friends for a while already but she never wanted me to meet her parents but she always wanted to meet my family and see my mom and things like that. Anyways her parents live in Pleasant Grove which is not that far from where M Street was but I was wasted.  I drove because she was white girl wasted. On the way to her house I thought it was going to be a simple quiet drive and park and drop off, boy was I ever wrong.

On the way there she confessed that she wanted to be with me and if I wanted to be with her? I told her I’m going out with Marie and I’m not going to just leave her just like that go out with you. I asked you 3 times if you would go out with me and every rejection hurt more and more and now you are asking me out why? Her reply ‘I was scared I’m scared to be in love and I dint know what I wanted. You make me happy and I feel safe around you. I was scared of loving you. You are a great guy and I like everything about you except that I’m not attracted to you.’ At this point she was crying and boogers were coming out her nose.

I swear to god and on my mother she was crying and boogers came out I shit you not, no exaggeration. I got upset I powered up I past level 9000 almost went super saiyan but  I felt bad I really did but I was drunk and I let all the things I had store up out. I told her I’m not that type of guy to just leave someone. If you really wanted to be with me you would not be scared of being in love with me. Besides I was always your plan b or your number 3 guy and I’m either all or nothing. If you love someone you will love them no matter if they are rich or poor skinny or fat or beautiful or ugly. Eventually she calmed down. If you ask her about that she will deny it but like I said I swear on my mother she had boogers all over.

We eventually get to her parents house and I park her truck in the driveway. We both get out and she is trying to open the gate to go through the rear of the house. She was still wasted as hell man I told her wait here next to the hood of her truck while I go knock on the front door. I knocked and knocked and no one answered. I figured as much it was almost 4 am. I came back to check on her and she was gone. She disappeared. Mean while Whopper and Marie were waiting for me to hurry up so we could go eat. I walked back to the fence where I left Alicia and she had fallen on the ground face up somehow. She laughed and she had this stare it was weird kind of like she was day dreaming or something. I managed to pick her up and right when I’m walking her to the front door she pukes on my shirt.

bitch puking on me

 

PUKE everywhere and this was my favorite shirt btw. I had all kinds of liquor on my shirt and what appeared to be corn. She looked at me and said ‘hey I dint eat corn today’. We make it to the front door and her brother opens the door he looks concerned and All of a sudden he steps back and her dad opens the door and mad he looked pissed off big time. I swear he was madder than a wet hen.  He opens the door and asks me who I am and what happened? My name is Big O I work with Alicia and co workers and us went out to celebrate her promotion and she got white girl wasted sir.

I didn’t know what else to say so I said I relinquish her to you here she goes safe and sound. I started jogging away when Alicia yells out Gordo get my phone it’s in the truck. Fuck I say under my breath so I go look for her phone for a few mins I could not find it so I open their door and yell out I can’t find it I got to go she yells back ‘ it’s ok I found it.” So I jogged back to Whopper’s car and we peal out. For a long time her father hated me but after a few years I got the opportunity to talk to him and explain what happened. He was concerned that I tried to take advantage of her or something.  First off I would never do that especially if I’m drunk driving. Second my GF at that time was following us the whole way to Alicia’s house so there was no opportunity for that. Once or twice I confessed to Alicia that if it wasn’t for Marie I would have took her home with me she always laughed when I would tell her that.

It goes without saying that I have mentioned the missing piece of the fucking puzzle. If you dint get it don’t worry I dint get it until just recently myself. The missing piece of the puzzle is simply that she told me herself that I wasn’t good enough for her several times and she was confused about what she wanted. How dumb was I to forget about that recently and go out with someone who tells you things like that and has told you things like that more than once. 

Just saying lesson learned. Do I regret anything? No I’m just upset at myself for being stupid and making mistakes like that I’m better than that. I was too dumb to see what was in front of me the whole time or shit maybe I choose to ignore it. I should have pieced everything together. Now I listen closely to what people tell me and remember that shit I write it down and take a picture because most times people tell you the truth or give your answers to things and it goes through one ear and out another hole.

 

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