New year new journey .

Happy new year!!! My new years resolution is to stop saying you go girl to myself. As I sit here alone with my vodka I reflect on 2012. It was a roller coaster of good and bad victories and defeats. I will admit it could have been worst. I will say that im glad this year is over. If people refuse to look at you in a new light and they can only see you for what you were, only see you for the mistakes you’ve made, if they don’t realize that you are not your mistakes, then they have to go.Time for a fresh start new opportunities new battles to encounter, the hard part about new starts or new beginnings Is letting go.

You got to let go of what you can’t carry and let go of things that will bog you down. I wont go into detail in this post about that , other post will explain but I will admit that I been called gay,fat,stupid,backstabbing,lazy, and ugly.I am not gay or a backstabber. I asked a gay friend what defines acting gay and being a homo , he explained it like this. First off to be considered gay you will set off gaydar, second you have to engage in anal sex and third you would kiss men. I was discouraged and angry and yelled out fuck im gay because ive kissed men.

My friend responded , did you use the tongue ? hell no sir I did not. Your not gay then he told me with a sad look on his face. Anyways I steered of course almost ran this post aground ala Francesco Schettino. This year a lot of things have happened that I never imagined would happen, made new friends, and made new enemies. Read my other post and you will understand why im not going into detail. I know what most of you are thinking , most if not all of the problems are your fault because you are too nice or you have a conscious and you don’t think logically. Fine ill admit most of my issues are my own fault  but I am working on improving and I am letting go of 2012 bullshit. I hope those if any who read this do the same.