You asked why I never kissed you? well here it goes:

At first I was scared. I didn’t think you liked me like that and I was afraid of getting rejected. you soon showed signs of liking me so I decided to give it a shot. when I looked you in the eye I realized that everything couldn’t be all together. how could I fall so fast and so hard for you? I knew I liked you but maybe I liked you too much that I was missing something.

I didn’t do it and it ended there….for a while. we were friends and you had a boyfriend and I thought I had it all figured out. then he cheated and you lost it. you sought me for comfort and I gave it. you said you needed me to be a friend so I tried to be the best friend I could be. shortly after you started acting weird and even asked for a kiss once (while you were drunk over the phone). it calmed down after that but I could tell you were still seeking it from me…

The kiss you never got. we hung out and talked all the time when you had a concussion and couldn’t do much of anything. I fell for you again, I wanted to kiss you so bad. but I didn’t and had no idea why I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I loved you then, and I still love you now. I always will. I don’t know why we never kissed.

Something inside me said “no” just a little louder than everything else saying “yes”. maybe the timing was wrong, or maybe it’s just that we simply weren’t meant to be. you’re back with the guy who cheated on you (you deserve better) and I have my eyes on someone else, so maybe it’s better that we were never more than friends. we’re great friends and that’s exactly how it should be, at least for now. whatever the case is, there’s one thing I know for sure, I know that I love you to death and nothing will change that. one love girl <3

Updated: February 19, 2015 — 1:09 pm
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